The secret: Keep going!!!!

It was 4 am in the morning I was soaked in sweat as I woke up and realized that there was no electric supply the previous night .  Yet another grueling day ahead!!!!!
Though I did not feel like getting up that day I had no option but to start my routine and eventually the daily chores started.

There was no end to the daily activities starting right from the breakfast, the tiffin,  rush for the school timing, morning walk,early morning classes, laundry and other household  tasks.

There was no sign of rain even after we were long into monsoon season. hence I thought of  adding yet another task to my list -- weekly visit to my parents.

I moved out in a hurry to catch the train . As I was walking towards the railway station I realized that I was drenched in sweat almost cursing everyone around me including the rush, the unwanted crowd, the pollution, sound of vehicles, scorching heat.
Not only that few always blamed to be things like unannounced holidays of maid,few repairing work at house,increasing cost of goods. To add to that I could see clouds rapidly gathering in the sky I realized that I had not taken umbrella.Now it was time to curse myself for not being prepared or rather not being able to keep up with the pace of life.
I started to rush towards the station before rain starts. but alas!!!It caught me and I had to take shelter  in front of closed shop.

The entire world came to a grinding halt!!! Rain made everybody to cut their pace and wait..I could still visualize long  'to do' list to be completed. I was becoming more and more nervous. Rain had given me no option but to wait!!!

And then a thought came to my mind....What is making me do so many things at a time? What is keeping me motivated all the time? Why I am waking up  early at 4 am  everyday? Why I am not preferring to have a good peaceful sleep on weekends? Why am I  aspiring to be perfect in everything I do?Why I m accompanying my 14 year old daughter early at 5 am for her studies? Why??  I really wondered . Why I am hastily making few good dishes  for my parents  and running all the way taking train journey just to see their happy faces? What keeps me  organized and  makes me detailing out every task to look after after my beautiful home? What is it which  encourages  me to pursue my dreams ,testing my abilities to make myself independent in the midst of  all the responsibilities? what is making me read and collect good books , listening good songs , what is making write , what is making meet my friends ? what is making me to be able to teach my students?This why was making me nervous and I was getting lost in the thoughts. What is that unknown form of energy , something which is not visible but flows within me which makes me care for my family , for myself . That unknown motivation.

As thoughts were picking up speed in my mind so was the rain outside!!!!!The narrow lanes and roads were getting splashed up by water with a touch of fresh earthy scent.

The  pleasant fragrance filled up my heart ,it cleared my thoughts and brought peace to my heart. It seemed I got answer to all my questions.I had a thunderstorm both inside as well as outside There was no mandate which was was making me forcibly do things  but it was a hope which kept me going. A desire of seeing a smile on my  daughters face as she comes  back from school, a hope to create a beautiful human being from a tiny baby which I had given birth few years back, a desire to express my love and gratitude towards my parents who live their entire life just to make me happy and successful, an aspiration to do something good , to invent myself  a desire to  make  myself a responsible human being,a feeling of satisfaction  which I get when I look at my neat and tidy home, a sense of gratification on my partners face . a kind of satisfaction when I teach my favourite subjects, a contentment  when parents of my students give me a positive feedback. a smile I deserve when I am able to keep up all habit in my habit tracker. I think more than what we do  for others in our close knit circle , their happiness and their well being  matters to us the most.

Station still looked crowded and chaos continued. Sudden downpour washed away all the dirt  and it gave me a perspective to speculate myself.
Meanwhile rain had stopped . I saw a small school going girl   trying to catch raindrops and splashing it on her face. It was simply a joyful moment to watch her. This is life. A  small ray of happiness which gives hope.
Many times we try to achieve  lot of things at a time  and then we get stressed if we are not able to meet a deadline, We keep worrying about small things and negativity fills up mind at quicker rate. Life is all about dreaming with open eyes. Fighting and struggling to achieve it, Some times  we loose sometimes we win but every time we learn. The real winner is the one who gathers up his courage to achieve something new  and just keep himself going!!!!!!!

With that positive thought in my mind I quickly collected my halted pace and boarded the train with a smile of happiness .....